Sunday, 27 April 2014

A update on projects

An update on current projects

I need to blog more regularly, so I will endeavour to make Sunday blog day! Along with catch up with Match Of The Day, day.

After a topsy-turvy week of rejections (boo!) and submissions (hooray!) I've settled back into writing A Fresh Start, a creepy short story set in a fictional backwater town in the US called Henry's Corner. I abandoned the short story a couple of months ago due to a massive bout of 'writer's angst' brought on by many events that conspired to fan the flames of my ever-present self- doubt, and which has been alleviated by the fact that I have stopped drinking caffeinated coffee. I am now some sort of peaceful spongey man, one who tries to go for a run once in a while and not eat too many eggs.
Anyway, I'm also hard at work planning out the chapters for my fantasy The Overcloud Codex, the idea for which has grown exponentially since its inception (hopefully in the right direction).


Alongside this, I am also planning out a novel based around a school called The Lessons of Autumn Falls. I'm not going to say any more about it at the moment, mainly because so many details are changing by the day, but it will be a bit more of a mainstream thriller than I have ever written, so hopefully it will appeal to those who find most of my ideas a bit dark and 'fleshy'. I have been sent a pic by my good buddy George Hodan (https://www.facebook.com/hodanpictures) that works very well for the theme of the story, so I've knocked up a mini cover again (which is my way of taking a break from words whilst staying focused on the story).


In other (currently published book news), Shy is getting some good feedback, and after a bit of a sticky situation with four ill chosen words leading to a concern about copyright (oh mama!), it's out on amazon with a swanky new cover that better describes its mission: to scare your tiny pants off with its interactive Japanese horror.



You can get hold of this tasty book for just £1.99 on Kindle at 
http://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B00JFPG80W (UK)
or $2.99 (plus tax) 
at http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00JFPG80W (US)
It's also available in many other countries, including Japan! Although it's not available in Japanese, because my skills are not that dope.

In a bit!

Jake


Tuesday, 15 April 2014

Ten things I should never do whilst writing, but do, every time.

Writing is a struggle, and I love making it harder for myself. Here's a list of foolish things I do with startling regularity.


1. Have another cup of coffee.
My writing time usually pans out this way...
First cup: "Great idea! Wow, that's sharp. It'll take some work, but I think this is going to be a decent piece of fiction."
Second cup: "Yeah, I'm gonna get this done today. I mean, my time is running out, but I've got more than enough to finish. It's just a first draft, after all. It could use more polish though..."
Third cup: "The kids will be up soon, and all I've got down is this awful lump of exposition. Right, concentrate. Come on. COME ON! There's no hurry, there's no deadline... but there is. The deadline is now. Before now. Why isn't it finished?
Fourth cup: "This is shit. I am shit."

2. Start editing before the first draft is done.
Ah, the joys of getting down four hundred words, then cutting three hundred, refining the remaining hundred, and ending up with "The night was dark. Well dark."

3. Check on my book sales.
Sometimes they've gone up, most of the time they haven't. That still doesn't stop me checking three or four times an hour. Each time the sales are static I die a little inside. If I sell a couple, great! Well, for about a minute... then I check again.

4. Check on my friend's book sales.
Sort of the inverse of the point above, but just as soul destroying. Since I started publishing stories I've gotten to know a lot of lovely authors, all of whom, no matter how stellar (and deserving of success) they are as people, I compare to myself with a vicious jealousy. Thanks to amazon, I can now pinpoint to the nth degree exactly how crap I am compared to them.

5. Think of an idea for something else.
And plot it. And re-plot it. Give it a title. Do a working book cover. Discard the book cover. Discard the plot. Discard the idea. Congratulations Jake! You just wasted your only free three hours this week.

6. Look at facebook/twitter/emails.
It's all the same, just wasted time. I remember being bored, back in the dusty annals of time. I haven't been 100% bored since 2007. After all, now there's always a news article about someone I don't care about to read.

7. Watch Match of the Day on Iplayer whilst writing.
Can't be done. "The mercenary bared his teeth at the oncoming monstrosity. The sunken eyes. The haggard features. It could only be... Martin Skrtel."

8. Open Steam.
I'll just check the daily sale. No, nothing good. Oh, I seem to have an abundance of games installed, none of which I’ve played. I’ll have to rectify that now, otherwise something will happen, something bad. Yes, I’m sure.

9. Stare into space.
No one knows what’s going through my mind when I do this, least of all me.

10. Throw in the towel and watch Aqua Teen Hunger Force.
Because there’s a sentient box of chips called “Frylock”.

Tuesday, 14 January 2014

Maxwell's Demon

Here's a micro short story I wrote for a mate, to tie in with his gloomy Lovecraftian electronica. Just stumbled across it whilst clearing out my desktop. It's a bit 'flowery' in its language, but I like it.

Maxwell's Demon

I want to wrench the sun from its perch and drown it in spit, crushing and pressing it down until it collapses in on itself. Dark matter, a black hole. Diamonds in an empty cosmos, reflecting nothing. It punctuates a picture I no longer want to see... a man, hunched shoulders giving the image of a desiccated spider's corpse. A perch of rain soaked rocks over Atlantic coast, the edge of the sunken world.
That face, those lines of concern and self pitying anguish, skin quivering either from tears or from the movement in the brackish sea water. Kelp lurches past, locked in an embrace with rotting wood lost from land, miles from home.
Those eyes cut into me, grey as ghost skin. Maxwell.
The surface twitches with a new zephyr that tosses a sticky mass of hair across cheeks that seem too sharp for humanity. A tongue, almost purple with cold, licks cracking lips and savours the blood vessels that have seeped through their makeshift doorways and made their escape.
Revulsion is all I can register when I look at that face, staring back at me from behind the shifting foam. The face is mine, but I feel no connection to it.
Death is too good for such a creature, but it is all that waits. Deeds are done and deeds are known and deeds are felt with regret, but they are never undone. There must be a resolution.
Did the child scream, or had it simply been his own soul expelling its last shred of humanity before spiralling away?
The body still lies a little way off, water pressing in on it and leaving a halo of foetid scum on the blood soaked clothes. Perhaps the lapping waves were urging the thin legs into an awkward jig upon the polished pebbles, but the face doesn't move to look. Rheumy eyes remained fixed on mine.
Rain begins to stab at the image, bursts of movement on a face that registers nothing.
There must be an end.
I reach forward towards the surface, my thin fingers twitching with anticipation as I curve my body towards the threshold, the plane that marks the divide, the ever shifting tide.
The surprise on his face is a marked change as my hand plunges from the water to grab his feeble throat. The flaps of ageing skin that encircle his neck slip and slide over convulsing tendons.
With a single wrench of my arm my quarry is within the frozen waves.
Air is a memory that is expelled.
A haze of blood from a broken mouth stretched to a scream.
There is no reflection of a man who cannot call himself a man, only the demon.
I am Maxwell's Demon.
I was Maxwell's Demon.

Thursday, 14 November 2013

Releasing the Terror Organic

Terror Organic, my new short story anthology.

I must admit, I wasn't sure whether to release this collection. It's made up of a selection of stories that have previously been released (Just One Day, The Uncanny Mr. Bones, Words, The House On The Bay, Skin Baby), two previously unreleased short stories (The Grey Man and The Man Of Dreams), and Shred, the first novella in my Cuts Of Flesh series, put in as a taster for parts 2 - 6.
Most of these stories have been free at some point, or were permanently free (Just One Day still is). Can I really justify charging for stories that I've put out for free?
Well, I would hope so. A lot of people have downloaded my freebies since I released The Binary Man back in May 2012 (well over 10,000). Whilst I have no doubt that some were simply downloaded, took up space on a Kindle, then were deleted, some were also read, reviewed, and hopefully enjoyed. It's to the people who have enjoyed by stories for free that I'm trying to appeal with this collection. 
It takes a lot of time and effort for me to write. I do enjoy it, for the most part, but my stories give me an equal amount of despair during their initial drafts, a feeling that sometimes doesn't fully subside once they are "finished". Despite my love of stories, I find writing the "right" story very difficult. There are a lot of hours too, far too many for me to consider thinking about, all slotted around a demanding full (and over) time job, and family. I know that this situation isn't unique to me, but I still hope that if you have enjoyed my stories, maybe one or two, or all that I've released for free, then maybe you would consider buying the collection retrospectively, if you feel you had £2 worth of satisfaction from it.
I know there are people who don't like the genre I write in, or my style, or the plots, and if that's you then don't worry, I wouldn't expect you to pay. Equally there are people who download my books to support me, and I'm eternally grateful, and don't want you to pay either. You do enough. But if you are in that group of freebie downloaders who have enjoyed my story, please consider buying this collection. You will also get two new short stories, so there's a little something extra there too.
Oh, and whichever group you fall into, please review anything you have read of mine, whether you enjoyed it or not. It all helps!
Thank you.
Buy Terror Organic here.



Monday, 23 September 2013

Multi project!

Just one of my projects.

This year has been a strange one so far. Last year I wrote frantically, finally finding the confidence to get ideas that I had been fostering for years written down. I wrote Heal The Sick, Raise The Dead in two months. I wrote Cuts of Flesh in nine months, (six novellas) and three short stories, even cramming in a novel during NaNoWriMo. Since then I have flitted between ideas, crafting covers and trying to fire myself up for something big, something important, something that will get me noticed (if the end product warrants it). "Last year was practice, this is the main event!" is the mantra that I've been trying to push myself forwards with. 

It hasn't worked. 

I've got a list of stories of various lengths that I've started and then left when the fire has faded a few weeks (or even days) later...
Gloom
Carnival
Clock
Ojiisan
Ragnarok
The Oddments
Blink
The Keep

This isn't actually a new set of circumstances. I used to do this all the time, but the only difference now is that I've finished some of them.

I could even add The Overcloud Codex to the list, as after a satisfying first couple of chapters, my plot began to bore me. I had envisaged a slow set up for maybe a series of books, a story of a world thrown into flux, but after planning a couple of chapters of political webs and conflicting relationships, it just seemed too ponderous, like discussing trade routes in those awful Star Wars prequels. I'm plotting a major rethink, but am putting the story to rest for a few weeks so that I can look at it fresh. 
And now, stepping into the fray, is Shy - a "choose your own adventure" mature horror set in Japan. Think Lovecraft in the east. The uncanny, the unknowable, red herrings, immersive terror... and it's great fun to write! As I've said before, I'm no literary fiction writer. I'm pulpy, shlocky, and at times cheesy. That may change as I practice (as that's all I'm really doing at this point), but for now, I'm going to continue to write what I enjoy, just to keep writing. Plus, I think the choose your own adventure set-up has enough retro charm to actually do quite well, especially with a more mature edge. A lot of people who have normally been lukewarm about reading my books have seemed genuinely excited to give this one a go. It even has scope for a series if it does well...

Sunday, 21 July 2013

Skin Baby


Here's a short story I wrote as a way of getting my brain back into a habit of writing. It's based on a rather strange dream my friend and editor Kathryn had. Enjoy!

Skin Baby

"Hoffner," said the suited man. "Is that a type of beer?"
"No," I replied. "No, I don't think so..."
The man wrapped his tongue around his gums, before giving his head a sharp nod.
"Pilsner."
The solution to his personal conundrum seemed to satisfy the man, bookending the conversation in his mind. His brow glistened with a thin film of sweat. His glasses were thinly rimmed with gold, or gold effect. I looked down at my notes. My words were drunken spiderlegs on the soft blue lined paper.
"What am I looking at here?" he eventually asked. His eyes narrowed against the glare of the halogen strip lights. The glass was clear, but only on our side. The infant could only see his own reflection.
"Samual Leopold Mc-"
"Official designations only, if you please," said the man curtly, flicking his eyes towards me. I paused, momentarily blank. Too much coffee. I'm becoming blinkered again.
"Subject one," I said, having to read it off the page. Of course. How could I have forgotten that?
"One?"
"He's unique enough to warrant it."
"But surely-"
"We've defined a new category."
"How old is-"
"The boy will be three this month."
"Hoffman," said the suited man, turning towards me fully. His shoulders pressed against the smooth lines of his off-grey suit, "if you interrupt me once more I'll send you back to pharmaceuticals."
I bit my lip reflexively. Don't mention that he got your name wrong...
"Fine..." he continued - to himself more then me - before turning back towards the observation window.
The room beyond was a mess of broken toys and spilled food, bodily fluids and blankets.
"It looks like a nest," said the man. I've already forgotten his name... Mancini? He's Professor Kray's superior, I know that much. "There had better be a good reason why that room hasn't been cleaned to company standards. This is a research facility. We have standards to maintain."
The blankets shifted as a small hand reached out. It slipped through a miasma of rotting fruit before grasping a red and blue plastic hammer and dragging it back into the grimy cotton folds. The suited man's eyes fixed on the movement.
"I was led to believe that agitation caused the effect," he said, leaning forwards until his forehead almost touched the glass. A faint halo of condensation began to form on its surface.
"Yes, but we've both recorded and exhausted the effect. Did you watch the footage?"
"I watch all footage from all departments. It's one thing to see it on screen and another to witness it."
"Well... we have got a test scheduled for this evening."
"Very good. I'm here now."
"Sir?"
"I'm here now," said the man, looking back at me. His eyes widened beneath his glasses.
We looked at each other for a few seconds.
"Perhaps we could bring it forwards," I said slowly. Kray will have my head.
"I think that's for the best."
I turned and scurried over to the control panel. My white coat was stifling. My badge beat against my breastbone with each nervous step.
"Begin," said the man, folding his arms across his chest.
My hands flew across the various dials. My fingers twitched with stress. Easy now, not too much...
A high pitched wail sang out. It was loud enough on our side to cause an involuntary wince; I knew that beyond the glass it was almost insufferable.
The mass of blankets unfurled like a dying flower. The boy rolled out, pink and glistening. His skin hung in rolls. His mouth was wide and toothless. We could barely hear his wails over the siren.
"Does it take long, or does... ah..."
The suited man's voice trailed off as the boy flipped onto his front. Bones shifted and slipped. Skin stretched and balloon, flowing as smoothly as water. Flesh tumbled and rolled.
"As you can see, the skeleton slips free almost immediately," I said, managing to keep the nerves out of my words.
The suited man flinched as a sudden shape pressed itself against the stretched skin that had been the boy's back.
"The skull," I said by way of explanation. I was gaining confidence in direct relation to the man's increasing disgust.
Streams of blood drizzled out of eye sockets that flapped free of their usual home. The press of frenzied limbs within the skin dome brought to mind a soft edged anemone.
"Stop this," said the man in hushed tones, as if afraid he could be heard over the cacophony.
Nerves fell back into place. I should have warned him. The recordings do no justice to the living sight. I shut off the wail and watched as the vigorous movement began to slow to an undulation.
“The way it moves...” started the suited man, before slipping a handkerchief free of his breast pocket and holding it to his mouth. He turned away to retch. In the room beyond, the boy's finger bones started to slip back into place within the glove of his own flesh.
“The boy has complete control over his body cells,” I said by way of explanation. The information did nothing to improve the man's mood. He closed his eyes as he pulled himself up straight. I could hear his breathing, sharp and fast.
“It's too much,” he said quietly. His back was both to me and the boy, who had begun to crawl back into his makeshift bed.
“We have even begun testing on smaller, ah... off cuts,” I said. “Professor Kray said we needed more time but the results are already astonishing. It's as if each cell can divine a purpose individually.”
“Divine,” repeated the man. He turned back towards me. His skin had bled of all colour. The sweat was no longer a film but a delta of rivulets.
“They can move. Each cell can move, when provoked.”
“Burn it,” said the man. He pulled his glasses from his eyes roughly and wiped his other hand over his pallid features. Sweat rained onto the ivory tiled floor.
“I don't follow,” I said carefully, hoping I had misheard.
“Burn it. Cleanse the room.”
“With respect, he is not an 'it'. His name is Samuel.”
“Do you think that matters?” asked the man, reaching forward and grabbing my shoulder. He began to knead the bone and skin together. “No one knows he's here. We paid good money to ensure that was the case.”
“But morally speaking-”
Moralilty?” screamed the man incredulously. He swung his arm and gave my cheek a sharp slap. I stumbled sideways into the glass with a dull thud. The sound caused the blankets to stir. “This has nothing to do with morality. That thing is repulsive. It disgusts me.”
The man bore down on me. His hands grabbed my lapels. The crocodile clip that held my badge snapped free and the my plastic enshrined face fluttered to the floor like a sycamore seed.
“We are here to study the next age of evolution, not to cavort with demons. That thing is a unholy. Kill it.”
My mouth moved uselessly. My thoughts froze.
“He's a boy,” I said softly.
Kill it,” repeated the man.
My eyes slipped towards the room. The greatest discovery of this age, lost because of fear...
The man released me, letting me tumble to the floor.
“You have one hour.”


The room was bare. The scent of bleach still stung my nostrils.
“Two years of research...” murmured Kray.
“He looked at me,” I said, staring at the spot that had been Samuel's bed. “He looked right at me. I don't know if he recognised me.”
The flame-thrower had been the only tool guaranteed to rid the room of all bodily cells.
“I don't even recall if I've ever shown him my face before.”
Kray sniffed, three times in short order. “Enough. This has left a bad taste in my mouth.”
The lab hummed with a dull machine heartbeat.
I carefully lined the remaining documents up with the shredder and began feeding them into the machine. The waste paper basket was already brimming with a vermicelli of white entrails.
“The air is too dry in here,” said Kray, sliding an index finger into his collar and jerking it away from his throat. He sniffed, before giving a quick cough, as if trying to dislodge a hair ball. “Do you have much more to do?” he asked irritably.
“There's just the samples,” I replied numbly, turning my back on him as I cast my eyes down upon the Petri dishes that were lined up along the counter.
I blinked. My right eye spasmed a little. I reached up with a knuckle and rubbed.
“Did you already dispose of these?” I asked. If he had, it would have been the first time he'd touched the samples since harvesting. Kray was an infirm man mired in theory, with hands that jerked in time with his pulse, despite his best efforts to control them.
The only answer from Kray was another rasping cough.
The counter itself didn't appear to have been sterilised. I placed my hand upon the surface, and lowered myself into a crouch as I carefully began to trace a barely visible, pink tinged line that zigzagged towards the floor.
“Hoffner,” said Kray, the word whistling in his throat as he gasped.
I shot a glance towards him. His hands were straining reflexively at his face, as he delved his shaking fingers into his own mouth. I pulled myself up quickly, my hands unintentionally sweeping the dishes onto the tiled floor, where they clattered and span.
“Move,” I commanded firmly, pulling his jerking fingers away from his spittle flecked lips, before tilting his head back. My right eye began to water with effort as I scanned his open mouth.
I caught sight of it a moment before it slipped from view, pink and quivering, wriggling downwards along the back of the old man's throat.
I let go of his face in shock, stepping back.
The faded pink/red line was there, snaking it's way up the hang-dog folds of Kray's sagging face, snaking its way into Kray's left nostril. It was indistinct, and far too faint to notice unless it was looked for, but its significance warranted fluorescence.
Kray gasped, a dry, jittering wheeze. His eyes conveyed a thousand questions, but only one emotion – desperation. His airways have closed. His airways have been closed.
My right eye flared with a sudden needle of pain. It was so intense that it dragged my attention from the dying man towards my own physical plight. I staggered over to a mirrored cabinet, scattering a trolley of surgical tools. Steel glittered as it rained upon the tiles.
The surface misted with my breath. I wiped away the condensation in time to see the line of hairs, crawling like caterpillars from my ear and into my eye, following a line...
Blood began to bead at the corner of my eye, seeping from the newly created and deepening wound.
My own words returned to sting my mind. “They can move. Each cell can move, when provoked.”
Perhaps the mind was never in control...
Kray collapsed. His lips were lined with blue. The memory of seeing the square of the child's flesh crawling into his lungs forced itself back into my mind. It was somehow worse than the knowledge that the boy's hairs were digging through my optic nerves, towards my brain...